realizations.

Well, I am 20. That sounds big... not necessarily special, but just big. No more "teen" ... *sigh*
More things seem real as this year has gone on. Savings accounts seem real, payments seem real, the future seems more of a reality than a dream, mistakes seem real, blessings seem real, friendship seems real, love seems real... I probably sound like a mushy girl. But I don't really mean it that way at all. I mean it seriously. Two years ago I turned 18 and felt like the world was ready for me to experience, and now I'm 20 (only two years older) and I feel like the world is happening around me and I have to fit in somehow. Adulthood is basically at hand what am I doing? I paid my first official bill on my own... I'm giving tithes and offerings to start the habit for my life... I'm saving money so that I can maybe have something when I graduate to start off with... sounds like it all deals with money. I don't want my life to center around money. I know it has to deal quite heavily with it, but it seems overwhelming to think about, really... I've gotten off topic.

Now is when I have to really start praying and working on things that I will need in the future (in my future) that is more and more quickly approaching. I love life, I love where I am right now, and I love where I will be by the Grace of God. This is just my mini rant for my birthday pleasure. Happy 20th freakin' birhtday to me (as someone would say)... let's aim for 21.